Friday, May 21, 2010 ♥
May... It had been a very difficult month for me... Ushering into the brand new month, i lost someone whom i loved dearly... Grandma left me, left our family on the first day of May... It was sadness beyond description to see her lying motionlessly on the hospital bed... I was unable to stop myself from crying, where i sought consolation from my cousin whom gently told me not to cry... Somehow i understand that her departure represents the end of suffering for her... I dun wan her to suffer but it pained me to realise that i am not going to see her again...
Preparations for the funeral were attended to right in the evening, which my parents have decided to place it at the void deck of my house... N for me, i have to juggle between attending the wake n my revision time... Because i have to sit for a paper on that week and to my dismay, her cremation is on that day too... This means I am unable to send her off on the last journey of her life... I will not be able to witness the cremation, which pained me badly too... I wanted to go so badly, but my bro advised me not to go as i will definitely not be in exam condition after that... N so, all i hope now is that i will be able to pass that certain paper as a present for my grandma... To let her noe that despite my sorrows, i am still able to fight on for her... To let her noe that i will be a grandchild whom she will be proud of...
She had been taking care of me since the day i was borned... I picked up cantonese from her and remembered the times when she will bring me to my kindergarten and my primary school... Those were the years when she was still physically strong enough to handle me... But i haven been a good grandchild during my secondary school days as i guessed i was in the rebellious period n patience definitely isn't on the top of my list... N yet now, when i have matured into a better me, i am unable to shower my love n care for her... Maybe that is why we muz cherish the people around us because we will never noe when we r going to lose them...
Frens, please do learn how to cherish your loved ones... :)
listened to the sweet sound @ 7:01 PM